How People Change

  It's come to the end of year feeling. I can finally take a long deep breath and have the sense of not worrying about the day or week ahead.... only for 7 weeks.. well that's still plenty...  These last few months it really has been tiresome, busy, on-the-go weeks. It feels like an engine motor on a train that continues to drive without making a stop. Finishing off any topics of English or Mathematics in the tightness of 4-5 weeks, on top of rushing and writing student end of year reports. However, being on the other end now, I can say that the engine is slowing down. I can see the final stop of where the train is heading and I'm able to finally just sit and relax..  Something that I've realised through this process is that I wasn't able to self-reflect, and it really has been a struggle to do life. It was as though everything important to me had to be on pause. As I'm processing my thoughts onto paper, this year was a tough year - not only because it was my fi

Monday 10th of August,  2020 Currently I'm reading this bible devotion with my triplet called "God of Creation" and so far it's been a great series. The planner goes for 11 days, at the moment I'm on day 3, but behind 2 days... I just wanted to share it because these last couple days has been quite distressing and gloomy (not sure what words to say, I'll let you judge). I don't know if you've heard the news about a school in the north-west that has had two students contacted with covid. Well.. the school is actually the sister school of Redfield College (my school) and these last 24 hours has been unstop, the emails from concerning families, the staff not knowing what to do in regards of this situation- do we listen to the AIS (educational department for independant school) or the Health of NSW. Right now feels like a battle against the students education vs students health. We were advise to get tested, which I did this morning at St George Hospital.

**Man O Man** *I want to have faith like Abraham.* It's the start of week 2 at school and o my gosh, it's already been a hectic, long and draining term so far. Originally I wanted to express how I'm feeling like right, and literally I'm saying to myself.. man o man, life is hard, life is long, life is ______ you fill in the blank. Ever since returning back to school, my days have felt so long, however at the same time really short. Do you know that feeling? The amount of repetition you need to remind the kids, can sometimes make you crazy (you parents know what I mean)... Anyways as I was sighing in relief (man o man), it reminded me a kids song I sang a long long time ago (get it?). If you don't know what I mean, check out the song. The link is right here  -->  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqHNM57ylrU As I mentioned before I wanted to give my blog a break, a mental and physical break. I could say it was such a restful time to catch up with friends an

What is the one thing you're looking forward to post-covid?  For those who have been keeping up with my blog, it has been a while since I've last posted. There are a number of reasons. Firstly, it's the school holidays...well...for me I actually started a week earlier and since being on holidays, I’ve felt my daily routines have changed and just in general I don't really have much to say. It's odd. I thought that since I have more time and energy, I would be posting every single day...well, I guess not. Probably because my blogs are a sense of relief from my job or it could be what I use my time for during the weeknights.  Secondly, I thought that since I haven't posted for a while, I didn't want to feel like I was forced to write something, especially if it feels relevant, or feels kinda like an essay you're supposed to do and complete even though you feel you don't want to do it. So bare with me. Since I'm on break, I thought this bl

Is it weird to say that you like your job? This is my first year of full time work and even though it's been 6 months at the job, part of me inside says that I cannot wait to work tomorrow and yes.. tomorrow meaning Monday. However, the journey to where I am today wasn't all rainbows and sunshine. Currently, I'm a primary teacher teaching Year 4 up North-West of Sydney. No I didn't choose to be where I am, nor did I have a choice where I wanted to work. Yes it was a hard choice to make, but in my situation anything was something. Looking at where I am now, I can say that I'm blessed to have a stable income despite what's going on right now. I graduated around 2 years ago (2018) at WSU (Western Sydney University) and once I finished, it was a immense struggle to find work. I finished at an awkward time in July because the intake of teachers during the school holidays was impossible. In addition, I didn't have not much experience, only from two practic

You might be wondering why I have all of a sudden returned to writing on my blog and have shared it with pretty much all my 'Facebook friends'. Essentially I wanted to keep a record of all my notes from a number of events, church services, thoughts etc. And if you're like me, there’s a shelf full of sermon notes and pretty much all it's doing is collecting dust... so I thought keeping a diary with me would solve the problem! The diary started out well (because as you know I like to keep things organised and neat) but I sometimes still had to write things on my lap because at things like conference events I would forget to bring it... so that didn't work. Then in 2018 I had the thought to type up a post, at first not a blog but something I could type and keep on my computer. Thank you TECHNOLOGY! Something technology is good and useful for!! Anyways I wanted the 'blog' low-key because it was just a way I could store my notes & things I've felt

To be honest I wasn't really sure what I wanted to focus this blog on – currently I've been typing up the thoughts from my week and the things I've been learning (whether it's an encouragement from a person or something from yesterday's sermon). As you've been reading, most of my blog posts are just trains of thoughts from my week, ideas/concepts found in the bible, and answers to certain questions of life – especially questioning the things I'm searching for in life. However, there is something that I would like to address and it has been something on the forefront of my mind for a while. It's a concept or notion (I have no idea how to express it), a word that speaks for many and has a lot of connotations good or bad. That notion is relationships or love .  Normally I would find a renowned quote from a random that I would find on the net or use a well-known definition of the word relationships or love . But as I'm writing I would like

It has literally been two years since I've posted my first blog. Two years later and nothing has changed... only that I'm now supposedly be experiencing my quarter life crisis? Actually I'm 26 this year and I know that many are probably in the same boat as me. If you're younger you're lucky, grab some sheets of paper and a pen and write this down. Hopefully, you'll find some helpful tips so that you may avoid this period of your life. I'm just joking, jokes aside..... no I'm not. The sad truth is that all humans sometime in their life will experience this. Here is a helpful definition I've found that explains what is quarter life crisis.  Quoted by Jules Schroeder says that Quarter life crisis is a period of intense soul- searching and stress occurring in your mid 20's to early 30's, typically because you fell you're not achieving your full potential or are falling behind. Soul- searching and stress, or in other words a

I just wanted to capture this moment from God because as Christians sometimes we can forget that God is at work for our good even times of suffering. These last two weeks of school must have been the hardest time of my life so far. The last 3 days I've had insomnia. I wasn't able to sleep, even if I did fall asleep I would wake up middle of the night moving around. I thought in my head what is the matter. The reason was my anxiety about school. Knowing me I'm someone that likes to be in control of situations. These last two weeks, I felt I wasn't in control- I felt I wasn't competent for my job, I felt I wasn't fit of my job. I wanted to give up and quit. These things were constantly in my head day and night. I was scared to come to school, knowing what my day would look like. I guess it was God's perfect timing that I was able to attend basecamp at KCC and hearing the sermon topic on anxious. I believed these were timed because God wanted me to